2/21/16 Update: Sweet Matilda passed on last night. My heart is hurting, not for Matilda but for myself. I wish I had more time to love on her but that would be selfish. Looking back I am pretty sure that her pacing and panting that I interpreted as anxiety was most likely something else. Yesterday she was relaxed and it was a beautiful day hanging out with all the pups and enjoying the outdoors. Matilda seemed more content. Then she had an episode that was unlike her previous seizure episodes. It was very disconcerting for me and the other dogs. With the help of my son via texting and the internet, I was at ease thinking that she had probably experienced a petit mal seizure versus the more violent grand mal seizure. She laid down on the kitchen floor and I sat with her until she fell asleep. I got up to use the bathroom and when I came back I noticed her tongue was blue. I knew then that she was at peace.
Having Matilda for such a short time does not make this any easier. I am crying for her and for all the other dogs that don’t get a chance to die knowing they are loved. Matilda could have easily died in a kennel all alone and scared. I take solace in knowing I did the best I could by her. Thank you Lone Star Rescue for giving me this beautiful little soul to love on and teach me how precious life is. I watched how my pack interacted with Matilda in her last minutes and that taught me a huge lesson about how death is handled in such individual ways. The emotions and perception of each one was absolutely defined just as it is in humans.
I will miss Matilda tremendously. I know that there is a heaven and I hope to see her there one day greeting me with her sweet slobbery kisses. Rest in peace little lady. I love you.
2/4/16 Please welcome 4-year-old Matilda to the Lone Star Bulldog Club Rescue family! Stay tuned for more details about this owner surrender.
2/15/16 Update: Matilda is new to the pack. She has a double ear infection so both ears are packed and her right ear had a cyst removal. She is resting from her spay and learning how to be the princess that she’s meant to be. Her first night at home was a scary one for her and me. Unbeknownst to me and the rescue, Matilda has seizures. I truly thought I was losing this little lady right off. Fortunately, the good doc at Total Care has got her on medicine that she will need to take twice a day for the rest of her days. This is a small price to pay to not experience 3 seizures in less than 12 hours again!! For now, I am happy to see her at ease. Matilda and I will keep you posted and when she’s up for more pictures, we will get out some music videos!!
